Everything is icky :⁠'⁠( My hate-love relationship with water (Blog #3, 9th March 2025)

Hello again B) I know, two blogs in a day. I am here to complain again DUN DUN DUN ಡ⁠ ͜⁠ ⁠ʖ⁠ ⁠ಡ

Nobody (hyperbylly) understands the way water irritates me. After showering my senses are overwhelmed (?) Comparable to the living dead , if you get in what direction I am going. 

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Whenever I leave the shower and the water droplets are running down my skin, I get the unresistable urge to throw myself in front of an upcoming train. I genuinely despise it.

I have no clue to why I despise it. I love cleaning myself. I need to shower everyday at least once or otherwise I feel dirty. But I also despise water touching my skin. Urgghhh. It makes me depressed. 

It make me feel alien in my own body and non of the internet tips are helping. 

"Use baby oil after showering" Fabulous, now I have oil on my hand. 

"dab the droplets dry with a towel after showering" worked until it didn't :-(

And after clothing myself, I always need to stand still for at least 5 to 10 minutes so that my skin gets used to the texture of the clothing because otherwise I will be irritated too. It's genuinely uncomfy to wear clothes directly after showering (⁠╥⁠﹏⁠╥⁠)

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I have to prepare for bed soon. I will need to drink a gallon of water because water gives me a feeling of being alive. I ADORE WATER 💕💕

Goodnight ꒰⁠⑅⁠ᵕ⁠༚⁠ᵕ⁠꒱⁠˖⁠♡