my day 9th march 2025

To understand you must let yourself daydream and let all ideas play out freely in your head,,, you must let yourself get carried away. This is humiliating,

My coffee went cold before I could finish it. I spent a while toying with the idea of making another,, but adding milk and sugar,,,,... I drank the cold coffee

I wrote about God today. I wrote about how atheism is a religion --- except you worship yourself and your own values instead of a deity. No matter how hard you try  to be faithless!!! Your human nature will tuck you back into the warm bed of fate.  Goodnight

I watched a video ,,, for school.. and Whenever I paused it,.. I still heard it!!!!! Faintly There was an echo of the video's audio... Maybe outside my window the birds were tweeting in the manner of my video birds... and the constant rumbling (Do you hear it?) was the same note as the video ambience . I felt special! I realised ,,,, soon after,,, My mother was playing the same video in another room, and the birds were not copying my birds.

Some parts of my day make me feel too sick to mention here,, they do not fit my narrative.  

Last night I didn't sleep under the covers