My feelings maybe..?

So for the past few days, i have been feeling low and hating myself and i have done nothing about it cause usually it lasts for some few days and then i become myself again but this time, i have been ignoring it and the hatred doesnt seem to go away. WELL, my social life hasnt been good too, i have started joking a lot and when i am joking, sometimes i dont even know whether i am joking or its me trying to say the truth sarcasticly. I havent done many things to make myself feel better. My exams are going on and when i hear my classmates talking about how they studied 16 hours a day or pulled an all nighter, i feel useless because i can hardly focus on anything anymore. Maybe i should just spend time without social media or maybe i should socialize more. At this point of life, i dont know what to do. Maybe this is all a phase and will go later when i grow up more (I hope it is just a phase). I just hope for the best for myself so this fact of me being all distant and low doesnt make me actually lose friends and connections. I have been trying hard to put up a smile and it amazes me because i was really a happy sunflower typa person when i was a child and now everything changed. Yeah, maybe it is just a phase, i hope it is.

I just wanted to share my feelings because i never really do it in real life.

(08/03/2025)

12.23 pm