the 6th of march 2025

I feel sick when reflecting on today but I do not know why. But if I don't push through and write about it I will never reflect upon this day and that's a day wasted

In this way I wish I could directly communicate from my head to you. "The limits of my language mean the limits of my world" feels particularly relevant, thank you Lugwig Wittgenstein. If I cannot give substance to my emotions and let them live outside of me, they do not exist! sad. 

He also said "Whereof one cannot speak, thereof one must be silent". While I agree for the most part, I feel speaking in the attempt to communicate properly is the exception to this rule. I may not know how to articulate my emotions, but I will not cease to try

I don't feel sick anymore

I begun the day with biology, same as yesterday. Quarter way in, I considered yesterday's lesson and found that I am significantly less tired! yay!!!!!!!!111!!! this did not last. I almost fell asleep numerous times halfway through the lesson and was frightened at the prospect of me literally losing consciousness oh dear!!!! not good. its okay I gained energy because I was texting Oliver and got excited to see him

Later I had maths. I brought up the function I mentioned yesterday, y=x^4. my teacher didn't give me a straight answer for a long time because thats just the type of guy he is. eventually he concluded it was a special graph. I am also a special graph

Only two classes in this day so I went home and slept for a long time by accident!!!! to be honest I didnt try hard to prevent it

I'm going to browse the internet and think about tomorrow. Goodbye I love you