💗Letting It All Thaw Out💗

Haihai!! 

I don't think anyone actually reads these entries, so this is all kinda for myself, I guess. Like a public diary. I know I could set it to private, but idk! What's the fun in that! What's the point of posting to a website if my thoughts aren't at least a little public! So here I am yapping to no one out into the endless internet void again. 

I usually try to make a post like this once a month, but I managed to skip February, which is a shame cuz a lot happened for me in February. I went to two different conventions back-to-back, one of which was Katsucon, one of the biggest anime conventions in the US, I got a PC and have had a hell of a time trying to get it to actually work, I went to a birthday party, I had late Valentines with my girlfriend & started talking to this other girl polyamorous-style... It's a lot. And now I have art block on top of all of it. 

It's officially March, which is always a strenuous time for me. Ocean Renaissance, the event me & my dad run, is in a month. As the single goddamn person in the Marketing Team, I have to post & advertise as much as possible, while still working on my own personal stuff so I can sell it at the event. I've taken great notice in the seasons changing, as infinite snow quickly becomes infinite rain. I'm finally starting to wake up to sunlight again instead of the unforgiving winter void outside my window. It's weird. It feels like I'm just ending up right back where I started at the beginning of the school year, and the beginning of the school year feels so far & so close simultaneously. Weird! 

This is my last year of high school. I have plans to get out of bumfuck Pennsylvania and run away to the glorious land of Delaware, where hopefully I can be queer and genderfucked and date 2 (or 3) women in peace. You may be wondering why I'm not booking it for another country instead and risking my time in this country at all. There is three major reasons.

1. Delaware, specifically Rohoboth, has been gay friendly since the 40s. the FORTIES. If they weren't letting people bother them back then, I don't think they're gonna give up now. 

2. I'm very familiar with the Delmarva area. I go to Ocean City every summer, & my mom is a local there. I know it's a comfortable little beach town where nothing really happens & people are chill. 

3. It's Realistic. some of my friends are planning Canada, or Germany, or Japan or Korea. And I love that for them, but for me? I would love to go somewhere like that, but i'm also (most likely) autistic, and I hate change, and that's a BIG change. New language, new legal system, new people, new culture, I couldn't do it. And that's so much money!! Delaware is right outside the borders of where I am right now. It's feasible, it's real, and I can get there. 

So yea! That's been what's occupying my brain space recently. If you're a real person reading this.... Haii!! How're u holding up? Lemme know in the comments if u want. lets be real together. 

 

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