Maybe

maybe I'm thinking too much again 

maybe I'll be better off forgetting it all

maybe I just need to stop thinking at all

Maybe if I just tried harder

Maybe if I did something ,, anything 

Maybe if I screamed, or kicked, or scratch and bit and fought

Maybe if I tried very hard to run away

Maybe if it didn't happen at all

Maybe if I remembered more

Maybe if I forgot it altogether 

Maybe it wouldn't haunt me at such late hours of the night

or when I just wanna watch a movie 

or shower and get dressed 

or cook or go out or eat or sleep or write or anything ,, really 

Maybe, when I wake up one day ,, everything will be okay 

Maybe one day I'll be able to sleep and feel safe

instead of staying up all night and making stupid blogs on Spacehey 

I don't know why I care so much about it 

It's not like I'm living it now

right now

I guess I think too much 

of what could've happened if just

'maybe'