sorry for being so depressing

i was too edgy in my last post. i need to focus on the okay things.

like how i love cats and losing weight and sunny days and my friends.......

i actually want an asteroid to hit the earth omfg

im so serious when i say that the world is such a horrible place and that someone should crucify me so that the world can be okay again.......but then again it was never good because weve been torturing people since whenever and people just love making others suffer. i just hope that this misfortune never finds me. if god was real he wouldve created us as better people. im tired of people hiding behind free will as the fact that god has absolutely no hand in the atrocities that befall our world today and the horror that has beseeched itself on nations for like the entirety of humans existing.

fuck me bro every time i try and write a blog i just start yapping about how much i hate religion. its everyday bro. i cannot keep going to these fucking religious education lessons to listen to my teacher talk about the greatness of our lord then proceed to shit on any other religion. kill me NOW and god forbid i go to heaven. heh..see what i did there.....

i dont know what i did there. just kill me

i never see myself growing to be an adult. ik that shit sucks more than being a teenager. but at least i could abuse prescription sleep meds

diphenhydramine save me

cigarettes......'

vapes.........

life is too long to not fuck my body up

self harm....save me.....

im not as bad as i used to be though so its all good. if i just keep staring at the sun and then start crying then convince myself that im crying because of how beautiful the day is ill never be sad.

i dont even know what being sad is ROFL

ROFLROFLROFL

i dont actually know what beseeched means lol

i hope that i have a fun time at work tomorrow. its better than school

bye