it will get better

hi, today i had a breakdown because of a bunch of things, but i think that my problems are really not so bad, so maybe if i stop thinking about them i will feel better. i know i can do stuff to change for better, but it will take some time 

in the mean time, i will continue to express my feeling with art. that always makes me happy.

also, i miss my best friend chris, we havent had the time to hang out because he has to study to get better grades, i should , too. I feel like a failure if i can't even get good grades, thats why my dad got me a math teacher that's coming to my house tomorrow.

I invited my friends to come over to my place, i dont know if they are coming, yet. we are going to watch a dvd that my friend bought a while ago, but im the only one that has a dvd player lol 

I will ask my dad to buy us pizza because right now my mom has no money (i dont blame her, its not her fault) so i really hope he does buy the pizza, or i will have to buy it with my own money 

now that i think of it, my teachers sent my mom some messages saying that i could do better at school, and that really helped me! i've been studying and i think my teachers have noticed, i even understand algebra!! (im not the brightest, but at least im no getting 0's at every exam now)

bye!