high on life

man what a beautiful day. 

I woke up at 10:30 today in complete blissful ignorance of what the rest of my Russian class were doing at the 9am text class :)

my room was bright and warm and i was all fuzzy and joyous - it was a beautiful morning like I hadn't had in a while - I'd slept for too long for the first time in a long time

I drove to town to get some Polish donuts, I saw two of the Polsoc guys who told me they were all sold out but oh well, I went to say hi to Imogen in the SU and then went on a walk to the Cathedral. The church bells were ringing and the rowers were on the river and everything just seemed so right I almost couldn't believe it had ever been wrong. 

18, 20 months ago man - I was falling apart. November 2023 I thought my life was broken altogether. I thought I would be alone and broken and lost forever. Look at that. Here I am in a beautiful city on a beautiful day surrounded by incredible beautiful people. 

On my way into the SU I walked straight into this poor innocent girl - I laughed and said sorry and touched her shoulder and said "shit - sorry" and laughed it off and it had honestly felt like I just bumped into a friend I'd known for years. It felt like that with the Polsoc guys, Filip AND Jacek,  and I don't even really like Jacek normally. 

As I said, I floated on up to the cathedral - I got to the chamber with the wooden sculptures behind the main altar. I was so overwhelmingly happy. So overwhelmingly full of Love. I thought, thank God. You know what? Thank God. That was the thought process that brought me into the cathedral in the first place. I was walking and thought wow, maybe I should actually literally go and thank God. How often do I do that? It's always laments and apologies and questions. What about a thank you? 

I did that and a few other people joined me at the pew and I listened to the mass going on in the side chapel. Very wonderful. 

I went home and ate some yoghurt and did some stretching and then I went on a run with Angie. Our run took us to the fields near belmont and I showed her my graffitti and the creek and the horses and she seemed to really liek it . We jogged a bit and ran a bit and walked a fair bit. The sunlight was glorious. I wish I were still outside but I have work. I'm writing this on my shift oops

Man, it all feels right. All of it sunkissed and blessed like a newborn babe. Gabriel's baby girl was born today - this morning. What a wonderful day to be born.