I Hate Taking MEDS!

I think I'm going to stop going to my psychiatrist because every med that she makes me try makes me feel worse in some way. 

I'm either completely numb for hours, or I can't wake up because she gives me the strongest sleeping pills that are basically like a horse tranquilizer for me. lol. >_>

I don't think she is ever listening to what I say. I know there isn't really medicine for BPD but DAMN!!! It's not working for my depression or OCD either, so really, what is the point? It feels like a waste of money to me. T_T...

Plus, I hate feeling numb. I want to feel human at least. 

It's not like it erases the pain either way.