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Am I sinking or swimming?Â
Do I want to sink or swim?Â
Is this a choice or is this how my life is supposed to be?
Can I swim while I'm sinking?
Is it possible at all?Â
Does anyone care if I'm sinking?
Or do they want me to swim?
Why can't they just see that I'm not always going to be perfect?
I'm human.Â
I make mistakes.Â
I'm not always going to know how to do something the right way.Â
I'm not always going to know how to help someone get through something.
I know they think I'm just a joke.Â
That I don't know how to deal with anything by myself.Â
That I just apologize to say words instead of showing it with my actions.Â
It's not like I want to sink all day long.Â
I would love to swim but it's hard with all the screaming voices.Â
It makes me feel worthless.Â
It makes me feel unwanted.Â
It makes me feel like I'm not worthy enough to be in this world.Â
Sink or Swim? Both.Â
I want to swim but I'm also going to sink.Â
It's never about stop trying to swim but knowing if I sink that I'm going to be okay.Â
Note From Writer: I know this feeling all too well. I just want to let whoever is reading this that they aren't alone at all. And that if you ever need someone to just vent to my dms are always open.Â
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kino
I often think about that saying: "Laugh, and the world laughs with you; weep, and you weep alone". I personally think that's nonsense. The world often is just scared showing it cares, overwhelmed over the state of things, too tired push us, to give us reasons. I think, in truth, we are the ones to give a push to the world. To find our reasons to swim and drag the world with us, or to fight that sinking and the indifference of people, the lack of compreension of our problems and make a change. There is no right or wrong, just actions and consequences; I feel some times like that is the most freeing thought I could ever have.