boys no more

i feel like these days i put effort for boys too much. everything i do, i think about "oh, he would like this. oh, one time i see him liking a post about this." and i hate myself for it. that's the reason i'll keep committing to be single until im mature enough. i cant be having a boyfriend right now. no, not yet. i dont even know how to know myself, let alone love myself. i will keep improving, prioritizing myself. cant have boys take over my life. i am capable. i can. 

hey crush, i still like you. but now i will focus to be my best self first. not for you, but for me :)

i wish i have the courage to tell you right now.