i dont like mirrors and reflections

i do not like mirrors. or just reflections in general. even my shadow. every time i look at a reflection, and can see myself, i hate it. i hate how it reminds me of how i look and every flaw and insecurity about my body. my face, my height, my weight, my hair, my features. i find it so damn difficult to simply have to stare at my myself.

whether it be a reflective window, looking at a mirror, the reflection of myself on my laptop screen, looking at myself on my phone camera or having to see my shadow, i try my very best to avoid them. though sometimes i have to look at the mirror. :/ i even cover my face with one of my hands while adjusting my hair in the mirror. 

maybe all of this is just a teenage thing. maybe its something i can fix by actually trying to improve my appearance/looks. maybe it'll be there no matter what i do. hm