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dear diary,
today i:
- woke up on time
- wore an awesome outfit to school (dress over pants)
- missed the bus to go to college classes
- instead took a nap in a classroom and did some o-chem mass spec problems
- set up for a gig
- played keyboard for 3 hours. i had plenty of solos and i loved playing.
- dismantled equipment and went home
- put all of my stuff away and cleaned my room
- ate yummy food (clam chowder bread bowl)
- now i ponder
another really busy day filled largely with chemistry and music performance. i can't complain too much.
i do feel like i am missing out on larger and more important goals, like music production and other long-term stuff... but at least i'm not rotting.
again, days like these are pretty easy because all i have to do is exist and deal with mandatory attendance. just by showing up to school and gigs, i am 'productive.' however, i didn't actually have to force myself to do anything because i had no free time. tomorrow is likely to be the same.
i've been spending a lot more time spacing out and thinking about random stuff. today i:
- imagined that i was explaining the differences between a roland juno and fantom to someone
- recalled a bit of a dream i had because of deja vu ( i no longer remember the dream )
- thought about having a girlfriend ( i don't even know )
i kind of want all the pleasant things about having a partner. the typical affections and whatnot. but i also really want to have someone who really cares about me and all of my weird details. like, someone who appreciates everything that i am and that i do. that also somehow sounds like a lot of work... my parents wouldn't really approve either but that's besides the point. i don't think i have enough time? if most of my days are like today, i don't see how i can spend any time with a partner.
also, i'm back on crutches. i'm actually glad... it means i can actually keep healing.
that's it from me. goodnight spacehey!
regards,
francis t.
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