My space on the indie web is my own to shape

It's strange how much pressure I unknowingly put on myself. I've written before about my feelings on the personal web, particularly about how freeing it felt to create for creativity's sake. Unfortunately, I'm still unlearning habits from the corp side of the web. I started putting pressure on myself to write something good, or helpful, or unique. I let my anxieties creep back in about talking to people, avoiding them at all costs. Worst of all, and almost entirely unconnected, my insomnia flared up. I've never had a very good sleep schedule but for the last week I've been sleeping less then 6 hours a night, which is a surefire way to trigger some mental health symptoms.

The thing is, I don't need to put that pressure on myself at all. This isn't my job, it's not a responsibility. Blogging and web-weaving are my outlets, for fun over anything else. I don't need to have expectations for what I put out into the world. Connecting with others isn't a game, it should be as natural as human nature itself, as pretentious as it sounds. I refuse to have things like minimum word counts, more than one draft, or even just trying to appeal to others.

The thing I love about the indie web is that everything you do is for you, for what you care about. You don't need to do anything, or BE anything other than exactly who you are. Want a blog where you rant about sentence structure and grammar 8 times a day? Can do! Want a website that's a collage of art projects and cool junk you found? Sure! It's about you, and it's about me. I'm not a product, or a brand, and neither are my creations.