First Post erm hi!!! ‧₊˚ ☁️⋅♡🪐༘⋆

Personal Identity has been weighing heavy on my mind since forever. I think I have grown used to the growing pains of the human experience at least I think so until a new and hard to navigate social experience presents itself to me. But for now I think I am very comfortable in my skin the only thing I find to be difficult for me to truly understand these days is how to reconcile the fact that I am so other from my family. Being autistic in a Mexican American Household and also well queer for that matter is really hard. It's also really hard because I am so Americanized that identifying with a culture that I wish so deeply to be connected to but often seems to reject my very nature is so isolating. I was considered very smart despite my troubles within the American education system and my struggles to navigate this world as a full grown adult has kind of fucking disillusioned me to say the least but still i long so hard for community and understanding. People are socials creatures and as it stands the lifestyle I live in one that breeds isolation. I work from home and social media and art are my jobs atm but holy fuck do I hate how current social media is. Websites and Apps fighting for attention trying to sell you products and slop and take your time from you. I talk to my sister often about what people her age do (we have a 6 year age gap she is older) and it seems adulthood consists of people with varying degrees of addiction all begging and pleading for connection but way too petrified of being vulnerable that they would rather get a quick fix than work towards building community around mutual love respect or support.  Recently I came across the term "digital garden" I have yet to fully investigate the term but the basic idea as it was presented to me was that they were pruning and prodding at algorithms in an attempt to create a space that was fully their own. And I kind of hope to do that here on this website. I love having pen pal long distance best friends and am currently in an LDR but I really want to build something and I hope that by sharing my ramblings about culture, love, queerness, and identity that maybe I can find like minded individuals. Or at least get a giggle from my own jokes once and awhile.

-PlushBomb ‧₊˚ ☁️⋅♡🪐༘⋆