2025.02.14

[9:45am] happy valentines day! this is my 17th year without anyone </3 anyways this morning i have been absolutely slaying. i slept really well and then i read a lot of my book with my foster cats. i only have 20 pages left now :)) and then i ate another quesadilla and played with the dogs. then i played some Minecraft and i asked if anyone needed help and this one guy asked me to decorate his house and i left LOL i suck at decorating so much all i do is put leave everywhere TwT now i think im gonna play some valentines day games on roblox or something and maybe draw. i should also probably read some more so i can finish my book before my birthday on sunday.

[1:00pm] i played some Minecraft, ate a slice of cold pizza, and showered. apparently we're going to the mountains tomorrow. i asked that since we'll be gone on my birthday that we could celebrate it today by finally going to dairy queen like I've been asking for weeks, and everyone looked at me like i was crazy and my mom said "if you wanna go so badly, go by yourself. but you have to get physical activity first." like gee thanks i have to earn my birthday celebration that i have to do all by myself. it's only my 18th birthday. we haven't celebrated in almost a decade and i figured since this is a milestone birthday we would at least do something, but i guess not. oh well

[2:00pm] i walked my dog for physical activity. i always let her off the leash so we can race home once i get to the driveway, but this time she just stayed and sniffed everything and ate rabbit poop and it took forever to get her inside. as soon as i finally got back to my room i went to take a nap, and less than 5 minutes later my dad stomped in saying "take the dog." i explained to him that i just did and he was like "wow don't act too happy about it." and walked away. then i finally started to get to sleep when my mom came in saying "i go places by myself all the time and im fine. also take this depression test." like i go place by myself too, have you not noticed that I've been gone from 5am to 2pm some days? i was working and then hiding at the park so i didn't have to come home. that was back when i was employed though. around November ish. and i took the depression test and it said i have mild depression and then she started making fake ugly cry faces when mocking a patient she had that scored the same thing. apparently my dad wants to to to dairy queen with my but that's arguably worse because every time its just me and him he turns it into a chore or errand run and lectures me about everything im doing wrong in life. i think im just gonna go by myself tonight and eat it alone in the car. the thing is today had been such a good day, and then my family woke up and it went downhill. i wrote a whole essay about why they are the problem and how to not do that anymore and things got arguably worse. luckily i move out in august. anyways im gonna play Minecraft now since napping failed.

[4:00pm] i just got in to my dream college! yay! im not gonna enroll yet since my parents arent home and they have to approve. that also means i don't have to apply for that honors college thing anymore :)) but i do have to do something similar for a $20K scholarship i got nominated for. i really hope i get it because California college is EXPENSIVE. anyways im moving to long beach in august! yay!!! i am now a CSULB class of 2029 student ;D