save me

my ** and i have been 88 and 888 for 2 years. yesterday, we’re n*k** in b8d together listening to the most beautiful ear sex music on a shitty cd player that 88***888*8*************  just tal**!! and it goes on for hours. truly a core memory. but then they just drop the news that they’re *****88 to someone newand i’m just **88** anyways *88** *8** *88** *888* **** “**** **88** **** going to be the **** **** **** ***88** *** 8888 friend duo” and then telling me that its 88 for us to **** ******** for **** ***** but we have to 88****** lock in as **888* best friends. ok ** **** that but 888 am i supposed to do that while having to watch u turn the 8888 you have for me onto someone else. i cannot watch u **88* another person the way that u **88* me, thats just crue*88

the weight on my chest is unimaginable, 

its too soon

im so cooked i cannot survive this i need to die