I'm struggling

I'm trying to push myself to work on my art or writing, but I keep staring at the empty pages and feel like time is slipping through my fingers.

I've lost so much time due to trauma and mental issues.

Now disabilities and even more life circumstances due to everything happening in our government and the stress the earth is enduring from climate change.

I feel hopeless.

This isn't something I like to admit, but I am not the "hope filled" person I claim to me. I put on airs to try and give others hope.

It's a struggle. I just want to focus on my art and find my voice, but it feels like it's all crumbling around me.

I don't know what to do anymore.