i am sweet

i try to be

sweet

when the world tastes so bitter and univiting

it's better to harvest the sweetness within myself 

and maybe it'll become a little bit easier to swallow

i realise more and more with each passing day

that there really is no one that can provide me more with the same sweetness 

that i want to br able to be given 

at least on this human realm

i wan t to be good 

to myself 

to everyone around me

but firstly mostly myself 

I sometimes get unbraravly lonely but its's lkke...i don't care rlly

like. should i care?

because i feel just som

comfortable with myself 

like finally 

i.can be loved in the way si wanna be loved

that 

i can just exist and be at peace 

and no one will get mad at ame if i do something wrong not inuupurpose 

i am comforted and i am told that i am good and everyone makes mistakes and that mistake does not define me it doesbnot mean i am a mistake if i make a mistake 

i am good

i am sweet

and i am tbe sweetes r forbme. 

Just for me. 

sometime s my vrain just. shuts off. and i am again so scared. and it'sjust alll so. terrfiying. at those times i am rllearning to be gentle wity myself 

At those times i just . can't thinj anymore 

i just want to retreat to the comfort of being alone wity myself 

i want to be sweet,, to that verision of me,, too

he deserves to be treated well,,.even if he is stipuid and udmb but its nit his fault okay he just needs some patienve and guidance it's okay

it's okay

it's okay

you are loved

you are loved

if not anyone else by from yourself

it maight ltake time to realise it

buf you are loved