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last thursday school started. new grade, 9th. it feels strange. it seemed as though it was the start of last year when the new yr 7s came in, now its the same, but a year further. 365 days ago. how did it feel so fast? ive been in high school for 2 years already. thinking about that sure makes me reflect on how much time has passed. it gets me anxious.
soon ill be in yr 10. more pressure, more stress. then another year, then another year and so on. each day my youth dwindles like a leak in a bucket. slowly emptying. why wont time just stop for a bit? why cant it feel slower? i cant imagine life when my youth is gone.
Ill turn 14 this month. im not sure how i feel about it. but really all it is to me is a reminder than my time is passing. its like any other day to be fair. yet the world has normalized it to be celebrated. people congragulate you. and for what? surviving another damn amount of specific time? everytime i think about it i cant help but think that its just so arbitrary.
at the end of it all though. time will continue to move forward no matter what. i have no power to control it, i can only go with it. my time is limited, im limited, so its up to me whether i give my best shot at living it to the fullest. even if i fail, adleast i truly put my greatest effort into it. yea, thats it i think.
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tabi 🍊
I get it honestly. I have my finals going on and soon enough I'll be in senior year. 17. somedays I really wish I could go back to the smell of crayons and bruises on knees from my bicycle. I haven't coloured in years. I haven't ridden a bike because I can drive now which is still hard to grasp. I know it's all so very daunting but honestly? it's not that bad. there's so much to look forward to, so many experiences to live that are written for you.
being very honest, sophomore year will be the last of rest and relaxation. don't let yourself drown in future, it will come. just focus on yourself and have good people around you and it get's so much easier!
love!!
thank u :]. i guess i do have hundreds of more days of my youth that i can use and enjoy to the fullest. been trying to find new friends similar to me online and reallife for the past months, still searching. but the futures unpredictable, i suppose ill live to see what memories ill experience and people i meet.
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