my ex

me ex. he thinks were taking a break. just a break. I'm over him! really! \

did he rape me? yes 

did I forgive him? yes 

but then why did he chat. I'm so understanding so I almost forgave him again. maybe that's not being understanding. maybe that's just being a fucking pushover.

yes I know I'm a pushover but why did he rape me then cheat on me...

I didn't deserve this. do I subconsciously just go for the worse guys ever?

maybe.

he cheated on me with his ex girlfriend from fucking 8th grade

that's one way to tell me your not over that fat bitch.

no I should insult her but I'm just jealous; I'm jealous of her

why did she get his drunken attention and not me

he must not really love me. why didn't he have his ex blocked.

I'm one to talk though cause I couldn't even block him. not yet at least

I post on my story just things for him to see

I want him but I can't forgive his madness

but the way he made me feel, the comfort he brought me. the ease he gave me. he touched me so good.

it wasn't worth the pain. he need to know he's a peace of fucking shit.

how could you betray your girlfriend. who at that was in psychosis in your eyes. you told her that. you told her I was in psychosis. so why the fuck would you text another girl when your girlfriend was in psychosis.

I wasn't btw he just thought I was

you want to see her boobs you want to see her ass. why not mine. was my body not good enough?

was I not good enough?