morality & mortality: a crisis (07/02/25)

aita for making my friends think i killed myself

i (15f) texted my 2 best friends (both 15f) in our group chat “i love you guys” and put my phone on airplane mode so they would think im committing suicide

i thought it would be funny to phrase that as a reddit post, forgive me

but now i’m really starting to think i’m like psychotic or something

do people do that? surely not.

they’ve been distant for about a year and we hang out but every time we do all they talk about is there other friends (they go to the same school and i go to a different one). i’ve told them maybe 4 times now that it bothers me and that i wish they would talk to me more. every single time they apologize and say they’ll work on it but then never change their behaviour. there’s also a bunch of other factors but i don’t really want to get into that.

i just wish they felt the same way about me that i feel about them.

i’m going to write the soundtrack to their lives. i will. they will be understood and heard and appreciated and loved like i love them.

everyone will see my songs and think “wow who inspired ray to write this” and i’ll be like “ava and ceili. who else would i write about?”

i’ve never been in love but god is what i feel about them close to that.