2025.02.04

[4:00pm] hi again :)) today was pretty okay. i woke up all emo from last night and just put on a baggy black sweat shirt and my usual jeans and called it good lol. then i checked my phone and saw loads of loona lost media had been posted by hyunjin so that was awesome. and hyeju posted a rejected gowon tv from their tour which was awesome. i love seeing them running around together being happy lol. it's like yuri fluff irl /hj. then i took care of my foster kittens, ate some taquitos, and went to school. my sister insisted that the bell rang 5 minutes later than usual for some reason so she grabbed my sleeve and dragged me to her class for some reason. her class was literally started and i said i told you so and speed walked over to my class. it was anatomy and we started our unit about peeing. not my favorite lol. its easy though so that's good. then i had study hall so i just went to my car and took a nap for an hour lol. it was very nice and i really needed it. then i went to ap macroeconomics and we took some notes and learns about cpi and inflation rates and stuff. pretty easy also. then i had lunch and my bsf wasn't there because she had a doctors appointment. also there was glitter all over our table for some reason and now it's all over my stuff. but i got out of class early so i was first to the lunch line which was nice. my friends and i read each others quote books and it was pretty funny, they all voted mine were the best :) then i had honors precalc which was kind of confusing but in the subunit we're on now there are only 4 possible answers so i can just guess and usually get it right lol. there's this girl who got called out in my Spanish class last week by the security guard and then was gone ever since, and she came back today and is now my partner. she's very nice and pretty which is great, but the bad thing is she's the only person in the class who's worse than me. but the plus is the teacher comes over and helps her through every step so i can eavesdrop lol. then i went home and for some reason my dad was walking my dog right outside the school which is crazy because it's like a 15 minute drive away from our house so he had to have been walking forever lol. then i got home and had some choccy milk. i got an email from the UCs that i needed to fill out a military form or else they wouldn't let me in, but i didn't apply to any of the questions they were asking. i had my dad do it for me lol. its ok because my mom wont let me go to a UC anyway. i watched some kpop stan twitter compilations with my sister which was nice. then i had my dad help me with some finance homework where we simulate the lifetime money management of the average American. he's a financial advisor so he's pretty good at that stuff lol. then i printed something for school and now im here :)) I'm planning to do some more homework and maybe play roblox. i wanted to go to the school basketball game tonight (special ed vs. junior varsity baseball) but no one wants to go with me (as usual). i hope it'll be streamed on youtube. anyways that chocolate milk went right through me so im gonna go poop and then get started on those plans haha

[7:00pm] again it has gone south a bit. i posted a small little funny video i made at lunch on my private account and my sister immediately commented "you're not funny." with a rainbow autism gif. then then i watched the basketball game and it was actually pretty good. the last shot was a 3-pointer buzzer ball that was nothing but net and the special ed team won. there was a big dance party at the end and everyone ate. then i watched the news and lost more faith in humanity. then i had dinner and it was taco night which was nice. then my parents asked if they could watch some of the singing show from last night and i said sure but they started talking over me as i answered. i turned it on and said "hey father this is the guy i was saying looks like tom cruise" and "here is the song that you said you didn't know" and "here's [my sister]'s friend" and every time they ignored me. they were both on their computers the whole time. i turned it off and grumpily stomped upstairs and shut my door and they didn't move a muscle, didn't even look up. so im a bit upset that they ignored me again. I've been feeling pretty invisible lately and this isn't helping. i also got mail with my dog and it was nice weather so that was cool. and i got some mint oreo ice cream for dessert. so all in all it hasn't been a terrible day and im not gonna let the family being rude ruin my day again. im gonna go shower and get ready for bed now.