2025.02.02

[9:30am] today has been pretty chill so far. i had a super long crazy dream which is always fun but i didn't write it down in time and i forgot most of it already lol. i also had a sleepover with my dog because she had to go pee in the middle of the night again so after i let her back inside she followed me up to my room hehe. my parents woke me up by talking about my college stuff really loudly. they're trying to put me in weber's honors college at san diego state but i don't wanna do it because they make you minor in taking random classes you don't need and i wanna minor in forensics. i don't wanna double minor because that would be way too much work lol. anyways i also cared for my foster kitties and did some basic skincare. and i rotated my laundry and i put new batteries in my calculator and i sorted out our battery container because it was a mess. i also banned Instagram from my phone for today because i need a break lol. right now i feel like an 1800s girl running in the meadow on a crisp spring morning after tending to the family farm lol. i just turned in my English essay and i gotta be honest it is not my best work. its really bad actually lol. and its worth 70% of my grade which is crazy because we haven't even had a month of that class yet. but oh well i don't really care atp lol. im probably gonna work on my webtoon a bit and play roblox. also this toxic girl asked me if i want to go to lunch with her today and im ignoring her because every time we do that she buys me lunch and then guilt trips/coerces me into taking her to walmart to steal stuff.

[10:45am] I've been trying to make my blog prettier but it's so hard TwT i don't know the slightest thing about coding so i am struggling lol. if anyone knows how to make my blogs look more like my profile that would be great! i worked on my webtoon a bit and it looks really ugly but oh well. i think im gonna play some rise to royalty now. i really need to shower but i like to play music really loud and pretend im on world tour while i do it so i need to wait for my sister to wake up lol.

[2:45pm] i showered and i totally ate on my fake world tour lol. i ate some white castle sliders for lunch and they were so yummy even though they're super unhealthy lol. i walked the dog with my mom and it was really nice weather. too bad im gonna reverse global warming because i loved how warm it made today lol. i did about half of the application for the honors college and omg it SUCKS. the short answers and stuff were fine but these essays are so bad. i need to lie for like all of them and it's 500 words minimum. i think im just gonna "forget" to do it because i don't even wanna go. it's not due until after the acceptance letters from my dream school come out so i think if i don't get in to that then maybe I'll finish that honors application. also i was playing rise to royalty earlier and i got noble and bought a ton of desserts and then i disconnected TwT i wasted so much silver omg. also i invited all my friends to my dad's SuperBowl party since i won't know anyone and h alf said no and the other half ignored me lol. so I'll probably be up in my room the whole time while occasionally coming down to steal some food

[5:30pm] i am a bit angry right now. first of all i was playing rise to royalty and everyone was ao upset about anything, complaining about everything possible. i finally became queen and i had super high wages, they hated it because i needed i higher tax to afford it. i lowered both to what they wanted, they hated it. eventually my internet stopped working so i left and went out to thee living room to watch the news with my mom. i told her about how i don't wanna apply to the honors college and why and she ignored me. then she started asking why the tariffs are bad and omg i told her its basic economics and that i learned it in freshman year. i know its rude to say but im so done with her already. i explained it to her as if she were a kindergartener and she still doesn't get it. then my dad came in and said "well what are they gonna spend the tarrif money on?" and i joked saying "they're probably gonna send it all to Israel" and he was like "yeah i hope so. they're the only sane country in the middle east." like ???? and he wasn't joking. is it sane to deny an entire ethnicity basic human rights like water and food and medical care? is it sane to bomb the heck out of them, have them evacuate to an area, and then bomb that area? those are literal war crimes killing an entire race of people over what a few bad people have done. maybe he likes it because he fought in Afghanistan and that was exactly what the USA was doing to them. idk but it really pushes my buttons. then my sister came out of her room yelling while her computer was on full volume while the tv was still on the news and she was like "GUYSSS GUYSSSSS TAYLOR SWIFT IS WEARING RED!!!!!!" like girl no one cares. go put on your headphones and freak out by yourself in your room. shes still sitting just outside her room with full volume so everyone knows whats happening at the grammys. the tv is still on super loud because my parents suck at hearing. idk i am just very angry and will probably leave dinner early and go to bed to avoid everyone. also i have stupid freaking school tomorrow and i hate it so much. and an assembly where all we do is squash ourselves together and yell. i hate it. im thinking im just gonna skip because I've been doing this for four years and every time i hated it. anyways I've noticed a pattern in these blogs in that every day is fine or okay until my family is out and about at the end of the day and then everything goes south real fast. luckily i move to the other side of the country soon.