Friday, January 31st, 2025

A LETTER I RECIEVED FROM AN EX-BOYFREIND FROM OUR RECENT BREAKUP

Dear xxx, 

I want to say thank you. Thank you for making this the last year the happiest I think I've ever been. Thank you for staying at my side throughout all the challenges we've faced. You were there for me when i was at my lowest, when i had nothing to offer other than myself. But you still loved me, you picked me up and helped build me up. You were always there ears ready to listen, arms ready to embrace, and eyes to dream into. For all these reasons and so much more i just want to thank you.

I also wanted to say sorry. i'm so sorry and filled with regret for not just the pain and distress i've caused you and your family recently, but for all the pain and all the distress i've caused you throughout our relationship. i'm sorry i was so emotionally immature and irrational, for not being able to reciprocate all the love you gave me. i'm sorry i wasn't enough of a man for you. And i'm for taking such a patient, beautiful, and loving individual such as yourself for granted, for being so foolish to neglect you.

I sit here at my desk with your bags packed of memories and a room empty of whom should've been my soulmate. I sit here thinking about the both of us crying and laying in your old bed, confiding in one another about our past relationships, so sure that'd we'd do better. i sit here thinking about the mess i've made and how i fear nothing will be the same.

You probably don't need me to tell you but i hope you know how strong, intelligent, and resiliant of a woman you are. i hope you continue your career and prosper in your profession. Because your capabilities are immeasurable. i hope you build that family you so desperately deserve. i hope you find the perfect man and have a perfect little baby you. because few women deserve to be a mother the way you do.

i'm going to be working on myself, mentally, phsically, and emotianally. i don't want to continue being the man i am right now. I want to be better.  need to be better. i finally realize i need help, and i hate it taking someone so perfect to leave my life to realize this. i hope you seek help as well, i know you can let thoughts and comments get to you. But no matter what anyone might say or think about you i hope you know that you're perfect. Part of me still can't believe this is real. All of me wants to go back 3 days, back to when we were excited to start building our future together. Maybe it's just delusion but part of me hopes that someday we can still have that future together. I want you to know you'll always have a place in my heart and if you ever need anything i'll be there.

Love,

xxx