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i want to create something beautiful.

not objectively beautiful. beautiful in a way, maybe only i can feel. that feeling you get when everything just feels right. something that creates a pit in your stomach, leaving you with emotions you have no idea what to do with.

i want to make something that leaves me floating on my back down a stream of consciousness and i may never return.

may beauty be the only thing i wish to feel and may i never re-enter a world that i want no part in. may i be me and only me.

how disappointing would i be?