Idk

I'm tired, I rlly can't get any friend and I tried hard, I swear. But it just doesn't works at all, and I'm starting to think I'm the problem. 

Somehow I managed to talk to 5 ppl and it just lasted a fucking day. At least tell me if u don't want any friendship with me instead of just dissapear. 

I'm rlly embarrassed to be the one chasing them to keep talking. I feel like I'm annoying them and that's probably true but, damn, just tell me that u don't want to talk. Fuck. 

My cousin found me crying about it and I felt even more embarrassed, but I'm grateful with him coz he tried to help. He's so sweet and caring. And also my bf, since he encourages me to try again and get over my social anxiety.