Trauma and how NOT to deal with it lmao

Hello again

So tonight I went to a monday night mystery movie. Sometimes on mondays the movie theater near me will show a random upcoming unreleased movie for a whopping $5. It's sort of become a thing to go with friends and it's almost always a great time. Tonight however was a little different. The movie was Companion, a movie about a sex robot gaining self awareness and eventually killing her abusive owner. It's a weird little movie that I enjoyed overall. I was not prepared however for how much negative emotions and memories would come screaming back. Years ago now I was in a pretty bad relationship. It was one of guilt, forced obligation, and naivety. It was a pretty abusive relationship that just got worse over time. When I finally got out of there I didn't process anything of what I went through. Instead I forced myself to forget and disassociate (i know real healthy).  I've had this problem in the past when it comes to dealing with my issues, and tonight was another reason as to why this is not the best method of going about things. I could have just been moderately uncomfortable for like half an hour and moved on, but because I never really moved on past those negative emotions here they are, as vivid as ever. This should be a case study on how NOT TO DEAL WITH YOUR TRAUMA LMAO. IT WILL STAY WITH YOU FOREVER. i know easier said than done. 

Anyway on a more upbeat note I'm gonna start giving a music recommendation at the end of each of these.
Hold On Now, Youngster by Los Campesinos!

It's a pretty good album of indie alternative rock straight from 2008. My favorite song is probably You! Me! Dancing! Love the melodies, the lyrics, and the buildup at the beginning (which has a snippet of Smells Like Teen Spirit by Nirvana in the live version lmao)

That's all I've got, see you whenever.