Please. Please be okay

People ask what should I do now? The world would be okay without me. My friends would be okay without me. The world would not change. Except there would be one less person your friends could see or talk to. One less person taking up that table no one else uses. One less person that had life. You want to give up? No. Stop. I know it's sad I know your angry. I know you feel like nothing or you just dont know how to rap your head around it. You can do it. You dont know how much people care. I had a friend say they were gonna kill them self. I stayed up till 5am worrying, crying. Talking to one other friend. Talking about what if there not okay? My friend went to sleep hours before me. I worried so much. I was shaking. My hands not resting. My mind not resting. I thought about leaving to. But I went to bed. Dried tears. Worried. Went to sleep no one knowing I was still shaking. They were okay in the end. But I wonder if the scares they gave them self is still there today? Are they not..? (Sorry if that's creepy...) Do they not have anyone they can talk to..? So many questions they dont even know I have. So many fucking things. Please. Please be okay. I told my self. I even texted begging to talk to me, too no avail. And when they said they were okay I deleted the texts. I have no Idea if they saw them.

Anyway, bye. I like writing <3

I wrote this late cause I can NEVER EVER go to sleep. It's almost 12 pm. I'm gonna get 5 hours of sleep!