Voice in my head

I think all the time. Actually, it feels more like I'm constantly talking to someone in my head. I can't stop it. It's not like I want to, at least not all the time. I love being alone and it makes me feel like I am, even in the middle of a crowded city, a bus or school. It's just me and the voice in my head. I can completely forget where I am or with whom. 

This would all be good and positive if that voice wouldn't turn against me from time to time.

Imagine something inside your head telling you to leave all of your friends so they don't leave you first. Imagine seeing someone you love talk to someone else and the voice in your head is screaming "Everyone secretly hates you and that you're not worth anyone's love!", or that you have no future, that you will suffer with noone to love you, that everyone is going to leave you and you will be lonely forever.

Imagine wanting to die and being scared of death at the same time.

That's how it is in my head, sometimes.