crush (kinda ex crush)

context:i go to an all girls school in a country that would stone you if you were gay also i have a resting bitch face and her class is next to the elevator that i am forced to use (heath issues) also im extravert

so i have this crush on a girl that i know damn well is not gay but i dont mind that i just wanna be friends. we have a mutual friend and thats how i got to talking to her and our mutual friend gave me a letter (dont ask i dont even know) and gave me some advice about the girl lets call her mav so and her snap i hate snap so i went up to mav and asked if she used anything else she gave me her insta we chatted a bit and i messed up but then we went to snap cus she asked me to i already had her so i added her we texted a bit then she stoped replying and unadded me and i was so confused i went to the mutual friend and she told me that its fine and that she really wanted to know me so i brushed it off btw i have been told shes shy and that im gonna have to be slow with her but she would be dry to me and would leave me on seen so i had enough and "got over" her i would still talk to her but that was only a few times once to help her find her friends at a school event and once because i would run into her i would walk past her class a lot so i often walk past her and every time she looks at me i look back for to seconds then ignore her i would even leave when i see her but i didnt get over her i would still watch her (i know its creep but i dont mean it that why shes just so pretty) if i see her even crashing out if i notice she looked at me before i look at her (not including the times i would walk past her) 

but im done i dont like this im planing on telling her at school  that i like her but im done and never want to talk to her cus its driving me crazy and it has i have wrote over 15 pages back to forth and im not a writer i dont right anything down and i cried about it have been haunted about it