home and hair dye (25/01/25)

i was supposed to go to my dad's house today but i had a panic attack and my mom let me stay home. i have nothing against my dad, he's great. it's just not my house. it's uncomfortable and i sleep in a basement (which i sleep in a basement at my mom's house too but like it's my room and i have a bed and i dont have to sleep in the same room as my brother blegh). i should probably see my dad more and hes moving soon so maybe we'll have different arrangements. i am praying we do.

i'm dying my hair again. i just dyed it like 2 weeks ago and it's still very red but january has taken too long and i'm bored of it. i settled on blue and i've never actually done blue before so i'm excited. it's probably gonna fade into a gross green colour but i'm okay with that cuz it's like 2 hair colours in 1.

it's only 5:00 pm so things may happen after this but i'll update if anything does. rn i'm just home alone with my mom cuz my siblings are at my dad's house and my stepmom is somewhere actually idk i wasn't paying attention. i need to do laundry. and clean. and shower. oh my god overwhelmed.

xoxo

-ray

update: did my makeup then immediately showered and ruined it so that was fun