i hate transit. (24/01/24)

i've tried 2 keep journals b4 but writing hurts my hands a lot so maybe typing will be better. so um hi idk who i'm talking 2 (idk if i'm even talking 2 anyone (probably not but i'm gonna pretend like i am) but i hope u enjoy my pains and suffering, shit i get way too excited abt, and rants abt my fav things

just some about me:

-my name is ray

-i was given emily when i was born but me nor any of my family actually rlly connected with it so i jsut chose to be called ray instead

-i'm a middle child and yes!!!! the rumors are true!!! i get forgotten!!!

-also a glass child (a kid who's sibling(s) are disabled and so all of their parents attention goes to the sibling(s) and the other kid just kinda has to raise themselves) so that probably doesn't help either

-i type very weirdly and its usually hard 4 ppl 2 read cuz i use so many abbreviations and numbers. good luck soldier

-i kinda hate my friends

-and myself

moving on 2 what happened 2day:

i went 2 my friends house and that usually would be all fine and dandy except i had to take the bus there.... well, a bus, a train, another bus, and then one more bus. usually it's only 2 buses i take and not 3 but i accidently got off the train a stop 2 early so instead of just getting on the next train, i found a new entire bus route in a whopping 30 secnds before the bus i needed 2 take got there. it was jsut rlly scary cuz i was lost in the middle of the city surrounded by a bunch of teenage boys and homeless ppl. i ended up getting 2 my friend's house abt 15 minutes earlier than i would have going the other way so maybe it was okay lol.

i didn't even rlly wanna go in the first pplace cuz i have to go 2 my dad's tmrw and that just takes a lot out of me and i need time to prepare by myself. it was okay tho, we made bracelets and talked and got monsters and mnms from the dollar store but i kinda just wanted to leave for most of it. i feel bad cuz she doesn't have a lot of friends (that she likes anyway) so i should be there 4 her more. idk.

i cut my hair a few days ago and it kinda looks like alice cullens' (if i do say so myself) when i style it so i absolutely love it. i look freaking adorable hehehehhehe

that's kinda all that happened 2day tho soooooooooo bye i guess

xoxoxoxoxxooxo

-ray