Red or Blue Pill

In school right now, I have the opportunity to know my grade and which grade the teacher gave me for my class participation... I am so afraid of hearing from him that my grade went down :( I had the best grade and don't want to dissapoint... Like, I know I participated less and that I deserve a lesser note, but hearing it with him directly in front of me will hurt more than just see my grade afterwards... But also not going to the room and ask my grade can show uninteress and don't want him to think I don't care about the subject... I am so sorry :( Almost everyone is going, but the class will end, what should I do??