what about your friends? do they make you happy?

its so cold and my day started at 7am

it was still dark and it got dark again at 6pm

thats less than 12 hours of sun and it wasn't even shining

i usually love the gloomy weather but

i smoke too many cigarettes and my parents are sick

my mom is sick, like actually sick

im worried

we argue but i can't imagine my life without her

it hurts so awful to see her down

i just want her to be okay, even if its at the suns expense

if the sun has to shine so shes okay i'll bear it

even though i dont really like the sun