haircuts + dance

Bro i want to get a haircut so bad. I just don't want a bummy man haircut.  ;( 

Im just gonna wait for my hair to grow out, and once im out of school i'll be able to dye it. My genes for hair growth and fullness are very good! :)

I've been thinking a lot recently about hair, and it not being visible to others. On the back of my head its very important for me to see that it fills in, but i don't know what it actually looks like from the back. I was sitting (on the nico chair) and I noticed a guy in front of me was already starting to bald on the back of his head. Wow! That could be me soon! 

Mostly I just think of the area under the hair on the back of the head. You aren't able to see this part, but others are, and it always feels weird on my fingers. Its sad when I see another person with no visual awareness of their haircut, and so its either overgrown, or uneven.

With my next haircut I want to have bangs, but I think they will be kind of straight, hopefully that frames my face well or smth (idk what im talking abt). It gives an alternative look automatically which I would really like. 

The two things I find scary about a haircut is it being messed up, and others judging me for how I look. Which is funny, because I see these two being contradictory. Wanting so badly to look a certain way, while also being afraid of how others will interpret this new look.

I also in part want to look nice for my pretty pretty partner! They're so handsome with their short curly hair AAOWOWOWAOWADYUGH!!!!!!!!!! AWooga!!!! wwww!!! We are going to a dance together and i'm gonna wear a suit, we should probably go matching! Going to a dance with somebody is so funnnnn, because even if youre not dancing (and those moments are very sweet) then youre walking around and meeting people. I really have to be on my A+ game! Last time I went to a real dance there was a crazy moshpit thing. 

She really is just a really cool person, and im sure she can dance much better then me!!! Just kidding i'm a better dance!!! Am I joking, aminot, who freaking knows! But she is really cool! We always read together and its very nice. I have also only spoken with them about a lot of hidden heart secrets!!!, I feel like I can only talk to them about certain things. Its so nice how we can switch from silly to serious to silly to serious and back and back all over. Whether its philosophy, or animals, or politics, or tv shows, its all spoken with a level of care that most people don't even give when they're giving their all. What a beautiful person! wowowowowowowa! 

-> :з  :3 look i made the face smaller in the first image, I think this represents how I feel