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⋆｡𖦹°⭒˚｡⋆ 01/03/25
My dad enrolled me in a School of Rock and I jst started friday last week, and I gotta say everyone have friends there, like I think I'm the only new one there or sum coz every person there is always talking so friendly with other... It's nothing wrong about it but I wanted to be friend with someone without friends coz I think it's easier that way, it makes me wanna be "extrovert". 

Now that I can't find another person like me, I feel like I'm the only introvert there. 

Imagine a summer music camp, it's basically like that. And my dad put me there coz he wanted me to have a friend, but I'm afraid of it and the only social interaction I had there since started was with my private teacher, and damn, I can't understand anything about his class. I've never learned music theory before and it's kinda confusing, I jst know how to play the guitar bc it spawned randomly in my brain one day, without theory stuff. 

I swear I'm trying to give my best there, my yt now is full of guitar lessons. But anyways, I gotta come out of there with at least 1 friend. 

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⋆｡𖦹°⭒˚｡⋆ 09/01/25
I forgot I had this, and I think I should update something, since like 9 months passed. 
I left that music school but with a group. I barely talk to them, and I was planning on inviting them to my bday but ig that'd be akward at this point... I don't wanna get old anyways, I don't wanna die, even if I tried to suicide 4 times by now, what's after death is scary as hell.
I'd like to study arts, I feel like just working on something I don't like is ironically killing me slowly... Seeing the positive shit abt that, probably I'd be so tired of life that death won't sound that bad. ִ ࣪𖤐

⋆｡𖦹°⭒˚｡⋆ 09/07/25

So uhm 2 ppl want to fuck me and wth is going on? Anime rol teams are crazy as hell most of the time.
Anyways. My dad have been sick all this week and, honestly, I don't like him as I should. I feel guilty about it but I can't change my way of thinking, not now, not anymore. My days with him were... Bad, actually. 

But, my grandma brought me a design tablet I asked for and I'm happy coz I can finally try it and omg is so interesting and funny to use. Something I'm finally proud of spending my mony on.