01/15/2025

Slept badly last night. I woke up with my jaw joint so sore, I must've been clenching my jaw all night last night, because I woke up so sore. Its been so sore all day I hate it so much. I wonder what I can do to stop it. Didn't eat much again today, the weather has been so crazy, in just 24 hours it went from -38 to plus 2, and it has taken a toll on me. I felt off and sluggish all day. It didn't help that my face was sore all day, causing headaches and such. I hate it.

I tried to keep my mind off it but it was hard to even eat anything, just chewing on my right side hurt so much. I wonder why I've been so stressed. 

Well, I have an idea why, and it has a lot to do with my plans for my future and what I'm gonna do with it once my grandma finally dies. I don't really have anything here in the city and I think I'm gonna just move up north to my reservation. I'd get a free house and any money I earn will be tax free, so that's a plus. I don't really do anything with what little friends I have in real life, and once my grandma passes on, I wont have a tie to where I live today anyway. 

Plus I had a really fucked up night mare last night, like I was watching in person a crazy psychotic surgeon systematically chop up a girls face, removing skin, muscle and such calming while she screamed. She couldn't feel anything but he also kept her conscious. There was more to it but I can't recall anything else. I wonder if that's what also caused me to clench my jaw so much that it hurt all day like this.