you're the purple to my orange

every time I see you, I'm filled with joy

you bring me back to life when I watch your brightness across the sky

as I awake, or when it's time to fall asleep

You're all I crave to see

You're my favorite sun, my favorite flower, my favorite fruit, my favorite color

I defend you when people curse your name

Oh, how I hate when they do that to you

but that was until I got too close

I had forgotten 

I've overconsumed you to the brink of my exhaustion.

I've never felt so hurt by you, it brings disgust

but why now?

Why when all I've ever done is loved you fully?

when I see you I can't stand the color of your skin

your scent isn't the same

I'm afraid of letting you right close to my lips

and taste the bitter sweetness I was so in love with before

but tasting you isn't the same.

I'm here to tell you,

I need some time away.

And it isn't your fault

It's mine.

For letting you so close

For thinking it was okay

To think that you were the medicine to my inner destruction,

My pain, my sickness,

but the sickness was all mine that overconsumed us both

leading me to fall apart

and as I find myself once more

like many times before

I'll come back to you

For I'll always love you

And I know you'll be right here

Waiting for me

In search for your warm delight forevermore.

And when the time comes

Time will be right

And I'll still name my future daughter,

Clementine