01/12/2025

Didn't do much today, didn't think about much today, just vibed with my love. He's a student right now, so he doesn't have his own income. We did talk about meeting up with each other soon, like hopefully by next year. He's even told me that he was thinking about taking extra courses to finish school faster so he can get a job faster to earn money just to come see me. 

I'm not sure what the future holds for us, but I hopeful of it. We were so close, talking literally everyday for almost 2 years. We did have almost a falling out and god knows we've had fights, but we did work it out between us. We have both hurt each other, but we both worked it out.

W is one of the most emotionally intelligent people and mature person I've met in my life. Its not like my Ex Jacob. And yes I don't care about name dropping him. 

W is someone I never thought would love me as fiercely as he does. He's proved himself to me tons of times, and I have no worries in my heart about him hurting and or cheating on me. I know he would never do that. I would never do that to him. He used to be bad with the over thinking and such and always asking me if I was talking to others. I do have friends that I converse with sometimes, and he knows my closest friends anyways. It got so bad that I almost wanted to stop talking to him because I couldn't take it. Him constantly checking if I was talking to others was driving me so crazy, and no matter what I did it didn't help. 

I finally confided in W that it triggered my PTSD from my past very abusive relationships with other Exs, like Jacob. Jacob would constantly accuse me of cheating and talking to other men, and it got so bad that I deleted all my social medias and stopped talking to all my friends. I told W all of this, and he felt extremely bad. He has since worked on himself and has started trusting me more, which in turn allowed my true feelings to blossom forth for him. 

This is what I mean when I say W has so much emotional maturity. I love him so much because he actually listens to and understands me.