Its Hot And I Rot In This Oven

It's off at work after killing a man (or something probably stronger?) They asked where Matthew went and so I shrug because I OBVIOUSLY CAN'T TELL THEM. they'll think I'm a SICKO and get me arrested, I can't really vent about it. I can't tell Crona bc he was panicked enough about the body and my tensed up body because I felt like a threat. I feel sick. I feel like just a weapon. The night after me being like that,I was at Crona's house, and I was just a mess,i walked up stairs to see he had his music up because he couldn't get the ideas of the noises of it from his head...i feel so guilty about it.i did something right but for what? The trauma of of death and feeling fake after it? Of feeling as monster-like as the one I killed? what have I DONE? I am done.