New year, new me

Date: 11 january 2025 

I've been feeling kinda strange this week, maybe it's cs this is the first week back to school. I felt a little weird and I can't really explain it. I've been feeling kinda jealous, of a lot of ppl and a lot of things. My friend spent the first day in school hanging with the ppl in his class, I for some reason got upset cs I didn't like that he wasn't spending time with us (me and his other friends). I mean it was no big deal, he spent the following day with us in school. But I also felt this way when other friends talk abt their other friends. I think I'm turning sensitive for some reason, It prolly won't last too long but it's annoying none the less. I don't want to care abt someone I hang out with hanging out with others, but I guess I do.

Besides this jealousy that has only been a smaller part of my week, I've also had a kinda stressful week. I couldn't get home from school one day, I overslept another day and I haven't finished all my assignments. I gotta do some work today, prolly soon since my parents are having guests over for dinner soon, and I couldn't study earlier cs I went on a walk with a friend (it was planned since a week ago and I didn't wanna cancel). The walk was pretty cold cs it's been snowing like crazy in Stockholm. I'm looking outside the window right now and there's snow covering everything, the sky blends in with the color of the snow so much so that u can barely tell where the horizon is, though further up the clouds reflect pink from the sun setting. And the sun is setting very early in the day during the winter. Anyway I'm gonna drink my tea now (not my favorite tea but it's warm at least). 

- Elliot