getting older D:

hi guys !! it will be my birthday soon and im super excited !! i will be 18 wowweee ! finally will be an adult (and legally date my bf hehe) :3 . i don't really like big parties because i don't like all the attention but im considering one because it is such an important birthday ! anyway getting older also makes me sad :( . i still feel so naive and innocent to be making big decisions . im not ready to leave my childhood waaaa !!! but im also excited for more freedom as my parents are pretty controlling so yea lolz :p .