freak

freak. weirdo. only one thing on my mind and i cant seem to scrub it off. i am shallow i am tainted i dont know how to feel okay with myself like this. it gets hard to just get through the day normally i have to waste time feeding my disgust but it never stops. maybe it wouldnt be so bad if it didnt twist and warp into such cruelty without a care for my comfort nor conscience.its long reached my core and no amount of deep cleaning and repentance will ever get it off.