16) comfortable states as sources of weakness

i have accumulated places to hide in the face of change

a space like this

or a space like someone else's life

or a space like intoxication or unconsciousness

with all these escapades i suddenly become very reluctant to face a perceived struggle

enough of this... i will do my homework now

- thoughts at the end of a winter break

[UPDATE]

didn't do any of my late work

instead ended up queuing up some of the best music possible

bumping so hard

unfortunately the whole point was not to do that but... i guess that's what i get for interrupting my motivation with a wendy's

hard to focus on work when the music is so damn good and the brain is flooded with dopamine

like holy shit i am content as fuck... so comfortable

today we listening to:

true form: the calling card by j-music ensemble, consisting of music from persona 5

crystals by sam rivers, some really bumpin avante-garde jazz

and pharaoh sanders live at mediawave, some ascendant type shit. honestly though i just like the video, as well as the ending of the first track.

anyways,

i think i'm gonna try to get up on my feet, maybe get my outfits and belongings ready for tomorrow, and then muster the will to do something right. probably just journalling and reading (still avoiding work but wtv).

might do a winter break reflection if i'm too restless to sleep.