validation

pathetically craving words of praise because otherwise i am nothing and anything i do becomes nothing. my excitement crushed and eyes wet nothing even happened but thats the problem. does it matter if it doesnt matter to anyone else? im probably reading into it toomuch im just like that. but i cant say anything i wont let myself say anything its too much coercion too much egocentrism . i dont need people to say things they dont mean. i set myself on fire and dont scream to put me out no matter how much skin already melted off my bones but maybe ill manage a weak whisper.