community-appointed antichrist

its a battle anger vs guilty conscience. undeserved apologies and nights wasted on crying googling medication doses hoping this time i wont be such a coward. lost nearly everything to a petty mess and somehow i was to blame. never really a person never really allowed to make mistakes. part of me believes i bring inherent ruin like its chained to my leg always singled out always thrown into the spotlight so i can be ridiculed and dragged out back once theyve had enough. community-appointed antichrist.