ranting

i hate feeling so negative and angry and depressed because im 17 now and everyone just dismisses me as going through that rebellious emo phase, i swear to god its not a fucking phase please listen to me i feel so disconnected with everyone i dont care about anyone or anything. i spent my entire life trying to please everyone that ill bend over backwards and lick their shoes even when they make fun of me to my face. ever since i stopped being nice about it ive just been alone, and i was always alone so nothings changed but i hate it. i hate this world i have to live in. im only mean because im challenging people to change my mind, and prove that there is good in this world, but thats not how it works. i cant change myself and i cant change humanity, so why should i be alive?