pretty rave girl dance (WIP)

heeeeyyy

soo... i was thinking about this one video i was obsessed with last year

and then i realized that there's an array of early youtube videos of people dancing to the same nightcore track and i was like, this is awesome, i have to contribute my own.

so i did. annnnd i showed the binder clip i used to make my shirt fit. kind of embarrassing but maybe it's a funny detail?? or a sobering revelation that i care way too much about how things look. which ultimately makes me feel less and less mature

this, as well as reading the The Sun and Her Flowers by Rupi Kaul, have been occupying my new years eve and day thus far.

i don't have any goals for 2025 in particular. i kind of live outside the passage of time. like, i know that i want to catch up on schoolwork, get good grades, make cool art, and learn cool stuff... and have more control over my tendencies and decisions. but these are things i've always and will always want. and they're never something which will be complete (except maybe the school stuff) so they're not really good goal material. 

some better goals:

• do what i'm already doing every day: steadily improving
  
• journal everyday, whether it be in my question-a-day-journal or on spacehey
• learn hardstyle dances well enough to be able to improvise with them
• don't die